By now, I'm sure just about everyone has heard the song made popular by Disney's Frozen. "Let it go".

If you're a boy mom like me, you were snookered into the movie theatre based on the commercials with the witty snowman, Olaf.
We sat down in the theatre waiting to be entertained by said snowman only to quickly realize this was a story about two princesses and a love story. Not so much about a witty snowman. Oh, and LOTS of singing! the hubs and little boy absolutely LOVED that (insert sarcasm).

At any rate, we left the theatre a bit bummed but decided we could say we saw the movie and it was pretty OK. (truth be told, the little girl in me thought it was pretty amazing).

At one point in the movie when Anna runs away with her frosty touch and quickly grows bitter at her sister, she sings the all too popular song "Let it go".

I'm sure some have googled the lyrics. But, have you really read them and looked at them from a personal perspective?

Let me show you what I found:

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation,
and it looks like I'm the Queen
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in;
Heaven knows I've tried
Don't let them in,
don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel,
don't let them know

Well now they know
Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don't care
what they're going to say
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway
It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me,
I'm free!
Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry
Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast 

I'm never going back, the past is in the past
Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand

In the light of day
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway!

So, here's my analogy of the words in purple.

If you recall, I've been very open about being a "stuffer" in the past. I can totally relate to the isolation and keeping things held in. I had built up walls and decided to stay "safe" by not letting others in. I pasted on a smile and put off the "everything is perfect in my world" vibe.

I numbed myself to the point that I didn't feel the pain of loss and hurt from others not letting them know that I've been cut deeply. Using  "let's just move forward, I don't have time to deal" mentality.

After some serious soul searching, prayer, and reading the book Finding Spiritual Whitespace , I found that It's not healthy, physically or emotionally to hold stuff in and to build up walls. We need to be present in each moment, feeling our feelings not blocking them, stuffing them, or hiding them. Because, inevitably they will find their way out one way or the other. 

After suffering severe anxiety and panic attacks for several years and not being able to find what was causing them, I stumbled across a blog post that laid it all out to me. it all came back to this. I held it in way too long and now there was no longer any room to contain the pain and emotions I once held in. Because  I was afraid someone would find out that I wasn't the strong christian woman I thought I was.

Once I worked through that, I now see that the "fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all" I broke through the walls that I built up brick by brick and slowly I'm learning to trust again.

So, "I'm never going back, the past is in the past" I've Let it go, "that perfect girl is gone."

It's taken me many years to get to this point. 20 plus years. I'm so glad that I finally feel that freedom. Sure, I still have moments where I entertain stuffing it all in and distracting myself with something else,  so I don't have to deal but then I look back and see where I've been. Sometimes I have to make myself be intentional with my emotions.

I know my family sees a change, and sometimes I think they're not quite sure what to think. However, I'm very blessed to have a husband that's walked through this with me and held my hand, even when he doesn't understand and has so many questions of his own.

Friends, Jesus wants us to be free. He doesn't want us to suffer. He doesn't want us to hide and stuff our feelings. However, He also says that we need to have self control.
He will walk with you just as he is walking with me. He will give you peace and comfort you with the peace that passes all understanding. He longs to hold you and tell you he's got you. He won't let you fall. He only wants you to trust him.

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.

2 Corinthians 3:17 NIV

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  1. I love the song "Let It Go" and the movie. Some of my grandkids brought the DVD over and wanted me to see it. It really touched me. Its message to me is to be who we were created to be and how love melts the frozen. I, too, built so many walls around me. I think I have grown, but sometimes I still have the stuffing tendency and act like I'm fine when I'm not. I love those last couple of paragraphs of how Jesus wants us to be free and to tell us He's got us. Beautiful comfort! Thank you, Krista. Have a peace-filled Christmas!

  2. Thank you Trudy! You're always so sweet! :)
    I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and I look forward to writing alongside you this new year!